That’s why you just smile knowing deep down you are broken,
It hurts so much that you no longer feel the pain and you wish you never opened up,
That you would still be the non-caring, unemotional heartless human,
You have always been when it comes to love,
You wonder why did you let that person in you go😔,
And its because diamonds also melt even though they are the hardest to break 😊,
You are surrounded by people who love you,
The people who cherish you, people who don’t wanna see you hurt,
But you didn’t see that, you closed your heart from them, you hid your emotions from them and intuitively,
You all hid that love in friendship and in new relationships.

I don’t understand why you always creating excuses and situations in your mind,
It’s not all about you laying on my futon and we screwing,
I don’t even want that,
Ijust wanted to show you that not every man is the same we all beans,
We all got different blemishes,
I don’t know who broke you,
Broke your trust,
Whoever taught you that all couples could do is the slosh of love making,
That it’s your time to be treated,
You are beautiful just the way you are,
Your scars are beautiful ajd and the stars are beautiful,
Your scars are bleeding coz you won’t let me love you,
Let me show you the other side of love,
Show you that love is more than making love and taking you to a million places,

I want you to have the sense of belonging,
The sense of security,
Yes Princess i want to spend time with you,
Give you tummy rubs when you are cramping,
Get you brown sugar water, make delicious meals,
Talk about our childhood,
Talk about our dreams, cuddle you to sleep,
Make you feel loved,
Why can’t you let me do that for you,
Make you see the beauty of love,
You don’t gotta be so uptight,
We ain’t all the same and am breaking knowing deep down you are scared and worried that I’ll leave,
What’s the point of staying back when you holding yourself to sleep and am ovethinking myself to Insomniac momma,
Come back home and we gonna be well as we watch the sunrise and set,
And forever I’ll be by your side,
Holding your hand and you in my arms.

The thoughts of you send chills down my spine,
How could you be so heartless?
After years of sharing a soul,
After days of pampering ourselves with love,
Was i too shallow or sallow?
How can’t i compare to them?
Is it the treasures of life?
Or the value of the love?
Had i known earlier i wouldn’t be this low,
I wouldn’t be this hurt and broken,
How could have I known?
When i was all blazon and ignorant,
When all i saw was you and only you,
Little did i know how they disdained me,
How they laughed at me behind my back,

The way they sneered ignorantly at me,
I never gave it a deep thought,
I was all in, neck deep in it,
I couldn’t help but drown it,
How am i supposed to swallow this fiery stone?
How can i just let you go, like nothing happened?
Played, used, abused, controlled,
Yes i thought that was love,
I couldn’t help but follow suit,
Every time i turned back,
A few knives would hit me,
The treachery, the betrayal,
It’s a pity that life has no manual,
That love has no teachers and masters,
That it’s only in black and white,
They called love blind, yet it’s all full light sight,
Sold to the ones I called friends,
Yes i still prefer the shadows lurking,
Like a leopard chasing without leaping,
Hunting without conquering,
Highly territorial, for it’s with assurance that trust blooms.

It hurts when the sun sets,
There hasn’t been a sight of you,
When the hurt is longing for you,
You are miles away, I can’t hold you,
It’s a pity that my palpitating heart can’t hold it,
My tears as clear as the crystal river,
It’s hard to contemplate that you not here with me,
That no matter how i long for you,
I still have to hold on to the thoughts,
I stare at the moon and your cresent smile crosses my mind,
As i walk across the ridge, memories flood,
I can’t help but reminisce,
On the thoughts we shared,
When we used to laugh until it hurts,
When I’d shower you with a myriad of kisses,
I can’t stop to imagine how different life would be,
If only o could hold you a little longer,
If i could hold you a little tighter,
If only my thoughts won’t always scamper,
When i hear your name,
How can i forget your dulcet voice calling at me,

The dreams that we shared,
The thoughts that intertwined our hearts,
It’s too painful when I think,
I might not have you next to me,
That i can’t wait on you at the train station,
That you won’t drag me home after a celebratory dinner,
That i can’t hold your hand for a night out,
The sun turns cold only because it’s warmth fades,
The moon is extremely hot,
When the thoughts of us moo bathing linger,
It’s no longer funny,
I can’t crack my ribs no more,
The beauty of life fades without you,
The sense of belonging long gone,
And when i left, my mind went bizarre,
It’s hard to let it go,
For i remember how you kissed me,
Under the magical falls of wolf street,
I’ll forever be waiting for you

A life that’s been loved is a life that’s been lived,
It’s scary that I can’t hold you in my arms,
As i watch the sunset the chill is most certainly lonely,
The whirl of the wind whispers loneliness,
It’s a lone world, and i am the lone wolf,
Thoughts of you flood my thoughts,
A tear fell on the cliff, i can’t help but weep,
I wrote paragraphs and deleted them,
I thought i meant something to you,
I was just a scratched disk to you,
I used to, used to now i don’t,
I treat you as a past time,
I thought you’d have my last name,
You said that all you wanted was this heart,
If turned out that it wasn’t, you should see the person I’ve become,
My heart is not broken just in pieces,
My soul is not weeping just bleeding,
And may be if we keep it that way,
Someday may be imma find my truth.

Life’s been dragging lately, may be I’d be happy with you,
It’s been days, weeks, months , years and no sign of you,
We had plans, dreams we saw a future together,
I thought you’d step and show me there was than a future in us,
It was never gonna happen, i was holding to a jade glass,
I ran out of patience, love without commitments, i was the fool,
I didn’t know that I’d be good without you,
You didn’t even want me to stay,
Half your heart was not enough,
I was all about and making you smile,
You killed all the chances,
I saw you leave not to come back,
You walked away without a second thought,
Like i was just some rag doll,
May be crayons ain’t gonna color no more,
Everytime i see your image my heart bleeds,
I’d rather die a lonely Overthinker than an emotional hero

She was willing to risk it all,
She was ready to give in her all,
She was unsure, ahe waa uncertain,
She remembered how he had said,
“If the world was ending I’d hit my favourite spot,
Sit lonely and take tequila shots,
Knowing I’ll leave the world with no regrets,
Except having loved you,
I was with you but you never were really mine,
I held you in my arms and still felt lonely,
You were mine but i really never had you,
I drown in the tequila knowing your love was as drowsy as it,
The ocean would be heavy,
And I’d smile knowing i would die a free man”
She regretted not having been there,
She was in despair now that the world was faced with a formidable opponent,
She was at crossroads, knowing if she said the wrong things,
There was no going back, she also took the tequila route,
She wished as the fear dissipated may be his soul would be at peace with her,
It was just but a lonely thought.

The anxiety levels were high,
Fear had crept into us, we were sown to earth hoping,
We wished we had lived life a better way,
Faced not with extinction the fear of not seeing tomorrow,
The people were in disarray, looking up to dilapidated governments,
The projects were scornful, medics were dejected,
A crime not against humanity, a jolt of ice against us,
The mediocrity had to end the people had to love,
It was in this situation that people loved ones leave,
There were no goodbyes, neither burials,
It was a way not to forget,
Lost, gone, yes gone forever,
A trivial time where the ruckus had gained weight,
We have been weighed,
We have been measured,
And we have absolutely,
Been found wanting,
It was a call, a call of death.

It’s deathly quiet,
I hear the sound of the famished roaches roaming in my kitchen looking for food mossels,
Dejected and still hungry, they leave the kitchen angrily,
The streets are silent, only the forces of the uniformed humans are seen,
The shadows are lurking with indiscipline,
The fathomable idioms of stones thrown, the teargas that tore the sky still dimly smelt,
The first day of curfew, deaths and casualties,
It’s been a long day and the shadows are dejected and hiding,
The disdain in the eyes of the people,
The ruckus in the hands of the disciplined forces,
The prey and the predators,
A fight for survival for both species,
It’s been days, families gone hungry, the ones in the street mistreated,
The government in disarray, tokenization of pay cuts,
The hand to mouth living threatened,
At the hands of death, the cars outnumbered the people,
The blazing horns were less than the running engines,
Not peace but fear, anxiety,
It’s deathly quiet.

The tipped imbalance,
Hanging on a thin thread that caught fire,
Walking on an ice that’s tattered,
It’s never easy smiling without you around,
An issue as wholesome as an ocean,
It’s too crucial that i can no longer hold on,
It’s all too hurtful thinking all about it,
When the sun sinks so does my heart,
When the storm is raging so is my mind,
I’ve been mindful of how i live,
The pains to hide the stuff to hide,
It’s been a triad of trials,
It’s never enough that i couldn’t have you,
It’s never been enough that I can’t be with you,
It unbearable thinking that you’s gone,
That you can’t hold me in your arms,
That i can longer kiss you,
It’s my fault that I can’t be yours,
A rose on a branch that i can no longer touch,
It’s all on me that i wasn’t even careful enough,
I’ll hold on to the memories,
Stand still and let the waves rage,
That’s why it’s all starry without the stars.

What of the one you try so hard to save something that in the end you find it was all in vain?
I’d  hurt  anyone who was involved in it,
I am too impulsive and prone to fighting back.
What of the one that you can’t have someone you want because  of mere circumstances,
And  you watch from the sidelines and get hurt everytime you see them,
Everytime you think of them,
It will always hurt it’s just what you gotta live with,
But it’s simple, I’d rather you break a million hearts just to be with the one you love,
The one you crave for, as for me,
I hide love deep down that lt slowly kills the humanity in me,
That i become indifferent, that you think i don’t care just so that they can be happy,
I’m not a fighter even when it comes to emotions so i’d also rather watch in silence hurting from the inside,
It’ll fade anyway after some months or years or never at all臘‍♀️,

That’s why you just smile knowing deep down you are broken,
It hurts so much that you no longer feel the pain and you wish you never opened up,
That you would still be the non-caring, unemotional heartless human,
You have always been when it comes to love,
You wonder why did you let that person in you go,
And its because diamonds also melt even though they are the hardest to break ,
You are surrounded by people who love you,
The people who cherish you, people who don’t wanna see you hurt,
But you didn’t see that, you closed your heart from them, you hid your emotions from them and intuitively,
You all hid that love in friendship and in new relationships.

I don’t understand why you always creating excuses and situations in your mind,
It’s not all about you laying on my futon and we screwing,
I don’t even want that,
Ijust wanted to show you that not every man is the same we all beans,
We all got different blemishes,
I don’t know who broke you,
Broke your trust,
Whoever taught you that all couples could do is the slosh of love making,
That it’s your time to be treated,
You are beautiful just the way you are,
Your scars are beautiful ajd and the stars are beautiful,
Your scars are bleeding coz you won’t let me love you,
Let me show you the other side of love,
Show you that love is more than making love and taking you to a million places,
I want you to have the sense of belonging.

How am i supposed to swallow this fiery stone?
How can i just let you go, like nothing happened?
Played, used, abused, controlled,
Yes i thought that was love,
I couldn’t help but follow suit,
Every time i turned back,
A few knives would hit me,
The treachery, the betrayal,
It’s a pity that life has no manual,
That love has no teachers and masters,
That it’s only in black and white,
They called love blind, yet it’s all full light sight,
Sold to the ones I called friends,
Yes i still prefer the shadows lurking,
Like a leopard chasing without leaping,
Hunting without conquering,
Highly territorial, for it’s with assurance that trust blooms.

The thoughts of you send chills down my spine,
How could you be so heartless?
After years of sharing a soul,
After days of pampering ourselves with love,
Was i too shallow or sallow?
How can’t i compare to them?
Is it the treasures of life?
Or the value of the love?
Had i known earlier i wouldn’t be this low,
I wouldn’t be this hurt and broken,
How could have I known?
When i was all blazon and ignorant,
When all i saw was you and only you,
Little did i know how they disdained me,
How they laughed at me behind my back,
The way they sneered ignorantly at me,
I never gave it a deep thought,
I was all in, neck deep in it,
I couldn’t help but drown it,