In all aspects, it was not shameful,
She had given up half her life,
All she got was pain and hatred,
Stolen, scathed and nattered was her love,
He had promised her the moon and the sky,
In her pursuit he had made it abominable,
Now she’s stuck in a wake,
Struck by a wave of guilt, abominable.
She thought of how to face the world,
Of how to get back on track,
She was like a tornado warning,
Waiting to erupt aftet years of dormancy.

It was not a long time ago, when the glowing moon, welcomed the howling wolves, her beauty without end, Her eyebrows were like cresent moons, her eyes sparkly just like the stars, with a beautiful straight nose, her lips were like reddish gothic points and her skin like coagulated fat, with silky black hair that fell down her shoulders, with her pair of bewitching Phoenix eyes, with a gentle, subtle and graceful smile on her lips, the kiss would be too light, too gentle, a little may be overbearing like rays of the sun in the east, like the torrential rain, sinking into disparity, the night was splendid, his thoughts overwhelmed him, she is all he wanted but she never noticed him.

Her smile was crooked, so were her thoughts,
Love wasn’t good enough without passion,
The way she wanted it, romantic as the novelas,
The tele fairy tales, with Jade Maidens,
The Cupid’s arrow never misses she said,
It was just but her first kiss, she put responsibility on it,
Stunned and astounded left in a flabbergasted mood,
The thoughts of an unsculptured love,
A love so raw that it couldn’t be processed,
Her love factory was running out of moves,
His warehouse was out of romance,
A stalemate of love, blissful and entire wishful,
Thoughts flashed, memories entangled,
If only it was easy as it seemed,
May be she could love him right,
She hadn’t been hurt, she was a clean slate,
His ink was withering, the feather pen was inherited,
It was borrowed ink,
With a clean naive slate of a ruckus princess.

If all was gone, he hoped he had her,
He thought she’d stick around,
Through the thick and the thin,
For he knew him and her were forever,
Little did he know,
Life had a way of turning stuff around,
May be the spin wheel lost it’s charm,
She didn’t even look back,
It was all shameless,
It was just but a fool’s idea,
It’s never been fair in love and in war,
It’s just an illusion,
A diplomatic ideology of senselessness.

A life that’s been loved is a life that has been lived,
Holding 999 petals of roses,
Waiting at the edge of the cliff,
Watching the sunset in patience,
He knew he was one step closer,
He thought that this bright star finally showed him some luck,
He however never thought she’d be ruthless,
She was gone without even a wave of goodbye,
She wasn’t gonna explain nor apologise,
He was left in the dark waiting for the moon to rise,
In it, he just became one with the howling wolves

An eye for an eye,
A tooth for a tooth,
Be nice to the nice,
And mean to the mean,
She never initiated attacks,
She was insensitively vengeful,
She always was going to strike back
The world had ridiculed her,
She wouldn’t stand and watch no more,
A wise man plays safe,
When a fool boasts of the endeavors,
A heap of praises,
Before a fall into the bottom of the abyss

He was unsure whether he could survive,
He had grown fond of her, gotten accustomed to her,
Her sent filled all the rooms,
He was left yearning, in desperation for her,
He swore that his heart would be caged in cryptic, cryptonian steel,
He’d align it with almond diamonds,
He wouldn’t let the love Pierce the little peace he had found,
His mind would his all and his soul would suffer for her mistakes,
It was weird but he learnt that broken crayons still color

I thought i never fall out of love,
The pain, the anger, the betrayal,
You turned our moments to your thing,
You stole my heart, my vibe,
You sold it for a penny,
Left me in a dark place,
I am lost, a little found,
I wonder how you can explain this treason,
You made me an income,
You wanna tell me that what you did was okay,
I might be the strongest,
I also got bottom lines.

Blues and more blues, thus,
The sky be blue,
Null, dull but still in the dark,
They wanna be there,
Yet they got split loyalties,
One step on the fire stone,
The other burning slowly,
It’s pissing me off,
They making it mundane,
Promises of tomorrow,
Today didn’t even exist,
They thought twice of the vows,
Trynna behind smiles,
Yet hearts ache,
It’s no loss knowing they used to care,
They played me,
Left me with scratches,
I used to, used to, used to,
Now I don’t,
Am no longer worried of heart attacks,
It’s heart breaks round the World,
My heart beats loud like the stereo,
It got one song playing on repeat,
This song be me, myself and I,

Disappointed I never saw it coming,
Tired that they made me the Option,
We was a priority,
Now stuck in the mud,
I’ll forget the tarnished moments,
Treasure the little we had,
Hoping we never tango to that dance,
It was pure,
Now impunity is an order,
Was spicy now tasteless,
It’s gonna be spineless,
For we moving in parallel lanes,
Fly as usual,
Distant as ever,
Makes me feel like a millionaire whenever she around,
She be one in billions,
She be worth trillions,
I trip when I hear her sound,
Sweet and dulcet,
Been to voyages and treasure hunts,
She still be the one,
We could have been so beautiful,
She has the thought,
She gonna be me Empress,
She been missing for sometime,
Now you here,

Gimmie some sweet love,
We can get back what we had yesterday,
We gonna ride me and you,
Ain’t nobody in me life like you,
Together forever,
Our love weather free.
Yes, You,
As you read try not to trip,
Yes, I wanna lay you on my futon,
Pin you to the wall,
Pin you in the shower,
My vertical erections,
Dissecting and bisecting your horizontal crazes,
The sweat, the sweet screams,
The beauty of it,
Yes it’s mad, soft,
Rough and worth it,
In and out,
In a slosh,
Fifty shade darker,
Version of us,
The thought of seeing you leave,
It shakes my heart knowing I won’t see you,
It’s for the best, it’s imminent,
It’s constant,
I’d give a leg and foot to keep you close,
A little bit longer,
Spend a little more time,
Smile a little more,
Yes,
It’s depressive, stressing,
I just wish you could stick around,
Hoping you just could,
May be should,
Stay with me,
A little more,
It’s me and you together,

She broke us,
She lied,
She lied to my face,
I was cool till,
She washed my heart with acid,
Now her smell acrid and rotting,
I ride high with the might,
With she who is an Empress by my side,
Riding chariots of love,
With cohorts of romance,
The ever running juice of fodder passion,
Hitting you smack,
Whack on yo shady ugly face,
You thought you was smart,
Now see yo beauty fading,
You became dry bones in the summer,
Drummed all day you got tunnels,
Shame on you liar,
Forgiveness you seek,
You still paying,
Growing up,
Life was like a painting,
Now you all grown up,
You see the double edged sword,
Your dreams vs their expectations,
Their little Princess,
A Queen attracting prey,
It’s disturbing,
In a way intriguing,
They care,
Sometimes they act like the don’t,
The fights, the arguments,
The highs and lows,
It’s all but the beauty beneath it,
The love, the moments you share,
The little things you do,
Life hasn’t been the same,
It doesn’t mean it will be still,
You one hopeful woman,
You’ve created clay pots out of dust,
You’ve become a wonder woman,
If only they knew,
It hasn’t been a bed of roses,
Count the love, the moments,

The hugs, they way you cherish each other,
As long as the grass turns greener see hope,
You got faith,
You got belief,
With that you fly,
You spread yo wings and fly,
Cheer up momma,
One day you’ll be in their shoes,
You make the difference then,
Live life,
Love life,
Be true,
Be free,
We live each single day, we only die once,
Smile, laugh, cry,
And laugh again

I decided to live like this,
To love you in the dark,
I’ll be here when you low,
I’ll be in the shadows when you smiling,
Whatever the case,
I dare not interlude,
I’ll close my eyes for a minute,
Hoping that i won’t tear,
Not because am sad,
Just because i don’t deserve it,
I’m still stuck in that thought,
Why do i like, like you?

Deep down may be you tried,
It’s no worries,
You didn’t fail if you tried,
I failed you coz i gave up trying,
It’s one thing loving,
It’s another thing hiding it,
It’s not as painful as they describe it,
It’s as easy as it sounds,
Don’t you try it,
Don’t fight for it,
Earn it,
Let it find you,
Love doesn’t hurt,
It’s the people we love,
The expectations we had in them,
It’s the disappointment we get from them,
Don’t you dare share my fate,
I’ll be lost if you get lost,
I’ve said too much,
I’m running outta spittle,
I have to wrap this app,
Am longing for the dark nights,
To see your illuminating smile,
As you shine all year,
I’ve been snowing for decades,
It was by fate,
It wasn’t destiny,
It was by choice,

My teary shiny eyes,
Learnt to look in the dark,
Learnt to love from the sidelines,
Like a foundation,
I can only aid without being visible,
I lied to myself day in day out,
Till i got used to it,
May be i way too bad at treating ladies bad,
May be that’s why they fall for me,
I just want to be the happiness,
Not the little darkness that i always bring,
It’s funny you’ll never hear it,
May be your friends will narrate such tales,
Of my wild tales and of how bad i am,
It was the only way i could be assured,
I had to create the wall,
The forever barrier,
So that you wouldn’t fall back,
So that you didn’t have to think about it,

I could have said thank you,
I could have stuck by your side,
To smile with you,
To take you out,
Have ice cream,
Munch on chocolates,
Take late night walks,
Hand and in hand,
Standing shoulder to shoulder,
Rolling in the grass,
Cycling bikes across the parks,
Your love for summer,
My obsession for winter,
We’d have been perfect,
This and that could have been us,
I am way too abnormal,
I disappear for days,
I am like a ghost,
Neither here nor there,
I got demons haunting me,
They called the devil’s brother,
I stiffled a laugh at it,
I was deep in thought,
I was fathoming,
Glaring at your photo,

It’s neither nonsensical,
It’s affiliated,
A little way of life,
I am brash,
I am not obligated to morals,
To the societal ways of life,
I forged my own path,
I followed my own rules,
Crush the foes,
Love to the end,
Protecting from the shadows,
May be it’s retribution,
For letting go of what i used to be,
The little demon that i became,
When my soul was shattered,
When my heart could no longer love,
Yet like a breeze you came by,
Soothing my pain,
Your smile the antidote,
My heart pieced one and one together,

What if?
This thought is scary,
I rarely wanna fathom it,
I just needed to let you know,
You mean a whole new world to me,
You might never know,
Just smile and talk to me,
I know I’ll fall deeper,
It doesn’t matter I’ll still smile,
Bury the pain deep in me,
Knowing that you are safe,
Your smile won’t fade,
My heart will be numb from the pain,
I got used to it,
Yet i might never know,
Why i like, like you?
Someday this could be ordinary,
Yes it’s no longer an issue,