I am sorry that it was insatiable lust,
May you see the monster you turned me into,
Heartless, nope, crazy, yes,
I ain’t gonna let some other smart ass wannabe mess me up,
A love was lost,
A soul was found
Dumb dumb it’s gonna leave you on chill mode,
Hitting a plane to bask i Dubai,
Heading for a game in Solomon’s island,
Shopping in the London Kings Collection,
Watch this space and see me fly,
Coz you was a lesson,
Sorry, i am not sorry

The beginning of the end,
The of the begining,
The light at the end of the tunnel gone,
Disappeared with no trace,
The darkness spreading too fast,
The pain over pleasure model,
The anguish of a broken heart,
The relentless wails of a lost soul,
In the light of the world,
I saw the sun fade,
The moon burn,
The stars collapse,
The light was gone,
The fiery furnace of love lost in a giffy,
I fight these memories,
To save my eyes from uncalled fear,
To run away from a reality so harsh,
The jaws of death so conniving with the heartless angel of death,

A blank space left,
Hard to write newly on a page,
The pen’s broken,
The ink is leaking,
Hands so shaky the ancient writing feathers can not be used,
The pain,
The anger,
The frustration,
The heart,
But why, why us?
Why him?
Is this what you call love?
The being abandoned for the rest of our lives?
An injustice that was just in the eyes of all,
The bleeding scars tell the stories of the future from the past

A heart made of diamonds,
In aluminum Chambers,
A mind of cryprtonian steel,
It was an American dream gone sour,
A daydream turned into a nightmare,
It was crazy that you thought we was gonna be forever,
I was stupid to think that we was gonna last,
So ironic,
It’s perturbing that we used to be fly,
I dread the time i wasted,
The energy i gave into it,
I sound stupid buh i don regret anything i did,
Young, Dumb and broke,
I was patient enough you played smart,
You wanna be a game player,
You couldn’t even play a mere Scrabble game,
Shame on you in yo stupid vibe world,
You used to leave me on read mode,
I am sorry that i expected too much from you,
You bloody sponge blurred my highschool dream,
I thought i saw love in you,

I still hate thinking of the reasons you left,
It was at the peak of the moment,
We was laying profound life foundation,
Stranded in the middle of nowhere,
I felt the silence,
I heard the pin drop,
I heard my mind relapse,
Drifting into a far away land, broken,
The feeling of betrayal,
But may be i was being too self centered,
May be I was being selfish,
Your time was ripe,
May be i was holding you back,
I am sorry that it took me time to let go,
That it took me time to move on,
Yes the scarred memories still bleed,
I feel the wounds fade,
Scars red with overflowing blood,
I still feel cheated,
But who am I to alter the course of life,
In eternal peace we roll.

I feel the pain,
I contest the idea of tears shed,
Enough had become enough,
My mind far away,
Trying to find a way,
Addicted to the idea of having you around,
The pain of knowing that we’ll never watch the sun set,
We’ll never stare at the stars and share our life goals,
Shattered into a million pieces,
So hard to contemplate why you left,
Your shadow still haunts me,
I see luck,
I see a future,
It was at a time blank,
Black and condensed with anguish,
The hatred,
The anger,

I remember it as if it was yesterday,
The pain still fresh in my heart,
My eyes still flow with uncontrollable tears,
A shattered heart,
A forlorn soul,
The prudent loss that saw a break in line,
The thought of new beginnings,
The sagacious idea of a life starting a new,
Stolen and snatched by the angels of death,
In power we conjure up,
In unity we hope of the great reunion,
The hope of reincarnation,
If wishes were horses,
The frogs would walk on their feet,
Everytime i see the shadow,
The creepy shadow of years of pain and suffering,
A relief, a welcomed eternal rest,

The reign of peace, a soul found and a heart lost,
The teary faces of the ones in line,
The broken hearts of the next in line,
The burden to bear of the next of kin,
The promotion to eternal glory, the flowery graveyard,
The pain utmost felt,
The blemishes of a love lost,
I heard the sound of the trumpet,
I feel the double edged swords dig deep,
A soul never to be forgotten,
The memories so sweet yet so Painful,
Yes it is what it is,
A gap left never to be filled,
The walk in those shoes never to be comprehended,
The pain, the wounds healed,
The scars still hurt.

On a cold drizzling day,
There was a birth, not Still, lovely,
Ululations broke the ridge,
It was one of the many occasions,
Bringing new life to the dormant volcano,
The birds were chirping, the crickets would dance,
The elders sat in a row, drinking merrily,
The grizzlies couldn’t quench their thirst,
As the cry cut across the ridge melancholically,
The women couldn’t help but smile and chant,
It was a day of feasting,
But his bleeding scars left him stranded,
It was on such a day that.

I thought i never fall out of love,
The pain, the anger, the betrayal,
You turned our moments to your thing,
You stole my heart, my vibe,
You sold it for a penny,
Left me in a dark place,
I am lost, a little found,
I wonder how you can explain this treason,
You made me an income,
You wanna tell me that what you did was okay,
I might be the strongest,
I also got bottom lines.

It’s just that patience is a virtue,
He had not lost the eye for a future,
He was under pressure,
He definitely needed to prove himself,
He needed to be strong enough,
He had to be able to provide,
His urgency to provide proved his avarice,
He wasn’t just gonna sit around,
He was going to take it no matter what,
It wasn’t a matter of dignity all just but,
Indignant need to survive.

It was a gelifraction of thoughts,
His mind was in pieces,
His heart was oveethinking,
How heartless was she,
To her he was just a piece of pawn,
The ultimate chess piece,
He was no more than a game,
He had fallen slowly but deep,
The seventeenth abyss,
There wasn’t no resurgence,
He was broken hurt but still standing,
Just reminiscing of the times,
When her enchanting smile was all he had to look at.

Love is yo life as life is to love,
She was gelivable, she fought for it,
She wasn’t gonna let him go,
She had given it her all,
How could she just let go,
Send her heart into ruins,
Break the little flicker of love,
She wasn’t gonna lose him to no one,
A sacrifice worth the wait,
Just to let it be?
She sustained the wounds and fought back the tears.

It’s not easy to love after being hurt,
Once bitten twice shy, the pain fades,
The memories linger around for longer,
The streams of tears and the despair,
She looked lonely and forlorn,
Deep down she was content and happy,
She just couldn’t disguise the pain,
For life without the one you love,
It’s a bit unbearable but times makes it easier,
It’s not that we can’t love again,
We are just afraid of being broken vessels,
It always doesn’t end in tears,
For love is intactness with life

The floods swept the houses,
The government demolished the remaining ones,
Hunger, anger, death,
The political warfare, the pressure,
We were standing on unending queues all day,
We voted for them into seats to stand for us,
They did sit on us, pushed us down,
They took the little we had,
The lands, the houses, now in a pandemic,
The kids are crying, the women fall prey,
Rising cases of gender based violence,
They are watching from a far,
Smiling at each other, gambling with resources,
We have been annihilated from our usual selves,
Poverty on a rise,
Dejection, the fickle rule of law,
The buckling leaders, a government without opposition,
A country on a verge of collapsing,
Yet we cast the votes,
Is this our fate?

As his fingers ran through her hair,
He felt that this would last forever,
The feeling of life being sweet and eriee,
The nostlagic thoughts of a love once held,
As his head reminisces on the after math,
It’s a Little pitiful that he’s stuck,
In a dream of forever, in serenity that never existed,
In love with the demons that slain him,
It’s not that he couldn’t move on,
He was just addicted to her,
Just like water and pills they were meant to be,
The prescription changed, so did the diagnosis,
How could he accept it, a new doctor wouldn’t do

He was in pain,
Streams running down the seams of his eyes,
Unconditionally and uncontrollable, he wailed,
As he wrote, “Hey beautiful,
I hope you are okay, i am not complaining,
We are just unlucky, I’ve been ostracized,
I won’t be part of you no more,
I just gotta move on, handle the situation,
I won’t fight nor concede,
I might be long gone by then,
You are and will always be in my heart,
I hold you accountable for taking care of what we shared,
It was pure, innocent and unique. ”
As the ink faded on the pages,
So did his soul fade in to thin air, vanished

The tables are turning,
The seats being vacated unintentionally,
It’s already a hefty payment,
The power they once sought,
For the hand that gave never received,
It is such a pity that avarice got them moving,
I see the essence of not voting,
We suffering when they having diplomatic Visa’s,
Why can’t we all have a share of the resources?
Is it all about power?
Where is the opposition?

The anxiety of having her around,
The scarry thoughts that keep me sleepless,
Insomnia calling at me,
The nightmares of her haunting my nights,
It’s been years and am still stuck,
Stuck on what we shared,
Stuck on the thoughts of her,
It’s been painful, she gets to smile,
The heart is scarred, my mind is hurt,
Hopeful but broken