In his mind it was a perfect trio,
A perfect bond of love with a little bit of madness,
He was super lonely yet he always smiled,
He’d ache in the dark, live in dark and smile in the day,
A master of disguise,
He knew when to act and how to react,
On this he became dumfounded,
He was lost,
He had lost control,
He was overthinking,
Wishing may be,
She loves him,
She loves him not,
She loves him,

You can run,
You can hide,
Light,
Darkness,
Relations,
I’m just but a little lost,
A keen demon,
A forever villain,
Not because am fated,
Neither because of you,,
It’s what I want to be,
It’s what i want to be,
Cold,
Frosty,
Detached.

Love has never hurt anyone,
Its not the people we love that hurt us,
It’s the disappointment they brought along,
The negativity they came with,
The expectations that we had in them

She’ll say she’s no gold digger,
She wants to be independent,
Yet you’ll get her drinks and credit,
You’ll treat her and her friends,
She’ll say she loves you,
Call you pet names then start the cycle all again,
It’s all too familiar,
If there’s no motive there ain’t no need to have expectations nor demands,
It’s gonna be clean despite the rough ups,
If only they could come true and say it as it is,
May be they would not label him a villain,
They wouldn’t say he is bad,
In this life he never told no one no,
He always said yes,
Then create the rift,
The gap,
They’d hate him eventually,
Never told no one it’s over,
But the knives he got in his back are something else.

No one cares if you get hurt,
They will always care not to get themselves hurt,
It’s the selfish art of the so called love,
Why would i hurt myself by tagging in to their love traps?

We would gladly receive wedding invites,
Buy the best of gifts,
Knowing they are happy,
We just bury ourselves in drinking and smoking,
And waking up to work the following day,
Like nothing happened,
Not suppressing love,
But holding it dearly,
Knowing we never shot our shot,
That counted for to us,
It’s all about love in disguise,
The fear of the forever villains we were born to be,
For we are toxic and toxic kills success,
Success is more Paramount than the selfish act of love and love making,
In that we deprive us of the forever after happiness
Immerse in daily routines,
It’s the alcohol that keeps us sober,
It’s the thought that keep us moving.

It’s only the ones that we love that can hurt us,
It’s goes two way and we are the ones that can hurt them,
We all look at life from different angles,
Some are straight forward,
Some hit the bush in getting to the point of love,
Some just hide,
To live with the pain,
Whereas there’s us,
The ones who have the weirdest way of showing love,
People might never know you locked your heart on them,
That you zinged with them and their characters,
But we know we are toxic,
We know that whatever we touch flourishes,
But love ain’t a business,
It’s not an investment,
It’s a lifetime feeling that at times dies,
It needs constant revival,
If it dies, problems will forever arise,
That notion gives us goosebumps,

He needed to free himself,
But not at the cost of their happiness,
He would watch from the sidelines,
Support them when they needed him,
He’d be there for them,
Knowing well that some day they’ll bid him farewell,
And when the time comes may be he’ll have the mind to keep the pain at bay,
To stir the scars from bleeding,
Scathed and forgotten,
He would retreat to his safe haven,
And forever be the villain that he is and should be,
For it’s with clay that hearts break,
And with the sun the dawn comes,
With that his sun would set as theirs rose

She said she learnt to live,
Glow and grow with and in pain,
She insisted that doesn’t mean she deserves it,
That’s why she’s my only drug,
When her twinkling starlight eyes usher the full moon,
We are scorpions,
We inflict poison stings,
When we happy, sad,
Scared and brave,
Sisi ni sawa,
We are the same,
May be that’s why the darkness acquiesced that we belong,
When you are the light,
I’ll be the dark,
When i poison, you cure, when you think about it,
Let it all out,
Howl at the moon,
When you turn all round,
I’ll be waiting.

You’ll claim you all clean,
I can’t even buy it no more,
When one took to the skies,
The other fell to the 18th level of hell,
I still breath and laugh,
Knowing that my laugh was the last,
You still stuck in stealing me back,
You still wish i can hold your hand,
Caress you,
Cuddle with you,
Play with your hair,
Take you to the moon and back,
So that you’ll be content,
Peaceful and act all spoilt,
I made claims i wasn’t gonna fulfill,
I just needed a leeway to see you come back,
Every now and then,
So just i could torment you,
Toss and turn you around,

It was all payback,
You wonder why i never gave a hoot?
How i never cared bout giving you face?
Why i let you catch me?
To instigate, to sow discord,
To make you learn to loathe,
To feel all helpless,
To live with anguish,
I was all smiles pitting you against each other,
After all i still could spin you round and about,
I still have you in the palms of my hand,
With chance and opportunity,
I’ll make you sing to my song,
Make you dance to my moves,

You’ll heave as you breathe,
Be content,
I’ll remind you,
You was mine,
Not anymore,
You are someone’s betrothed,
I laugh at such thoughts,
I can have you,
You can’t have me,
We can play,
You still need to remember,
Your wifely virtues,
Yes,
Scheming,
Sinister,
Ruthless,
I get to live with it,
You can’t have me,
You can’t be with me,
You’ll never learn how it feels,
To be stuck with you and yourself,
When the world send you stumbling,
When your world comes crumbling,
Then I’ll be content,

They called it friendship,
Did you know how many times they sullied you,
They harassed you,
How could the blind you see it,
Wasn’t it you who went knocking,
Opening old wounds,
Adding salt to them plainly,
I do laugh at you,
For the times you stuck with them,
Your thinking you was the player,
You wasn’t even a pawn on the piece,
Just the tool to the board,
Do thoughts of them still flood in your mind,
Do you still feel regretful when you hear them talk,
It was just next door,
He almost had you,
You even pretended nothing happened,
I was all too stupid then,
It wasn’t for fun,

A hyena can’t change it’s spots,
Change is inevitable,
So was your fall from grace,
The art of contempt,
Slowly creeping into you,
You took my three millets,
Your three grains would all be mine,
With your glib sharp tongue,
You couldn’t even stop it,
Even the immortals would be hard-pressed to escape it,
The world was bigger than you imagined,
It took it’s round,
Around the sun,
You took your rounds amongst them,
They claimed to love you,
They all ravaged you,
Made you wait on them,
Because gifts and fun attracted you,

I wasn’t too happy,
I had lost my innocence,
Conniving and scheming,
You never did see it coming,
You had the audacity to return,
Claiming it was all momentary muddleness,
Clueless and all smiles,
I did not push you away,
It was about time you danced to the tune,
Learnt what it felt to slap yourself in the face,
Felt how painful it is when you stab your own foot,
How hopeless it is cutting the hand that fed you,
Paying kindness with enemity,
To know the meaning of patting a horse on it’s back,
It was all that too easy for you,
Did you think i was too blind,
Or is it i was too head over heels,
Yes you were right,
That was before,

I was just but a bridge,
Burned right after you crossed it,
Bridges will always be bridges,
Roads will forever be roads,
Well water never sees the river water,
It was as such for us,
You pushed me to the back of your mind,
You even forgot the little we shared,
I became calm, collected,
I learnt the art of patience,
I was all imaginative,
I started my blackbelliness then,
My schemes and trickery,
I would never strike before you stroke first,
I became the shadow,
I learnt how to lead and trap,
It was then my mind steeled,
My heart became stiffly a diamond

I was just but a bridge,
Burned right after you crossed it,
Bridges will always be bridges,
Roads will forever be roads,
Well water never sees the river water,
It was as such for us,
You pushed me to the back of your mind,
You even forgot the little we shared,
I became calm, collected,
I learnt the art of patience,
I was all imaginative,
I started my blackbelliness then,
My schemes and trickery,
I would never strike before you stroke first,
I became the shadow,
I learnt how to lead and trap,
It was then my mind steeled,
My heart became stiffly a diamond

You’ll heave as you breathe,
Be content,
I’ll remind you,
You was mine,
Not anymore,
You are someone’s betrothed,
I laugh at such thoughts,
I can have you,
You can’t have me,
We can play,
You still need to remember,
Your wifely virtues,
Yes,
Scheming,
Sinister,
Ruthless,
I get to live with it,
You can’t have me,
You can’t be with me,
You’ll never learn how it feels,
To be stuck with you and yourself,
When the world send you stumbling,
When your world comes crumbling,
Then I’ll be content,