My last one called me insecure
Yes, I admit it am insecure,
Am an overthinker
Am selfish, I want you all to myself 😵
I don’t wanna share a you with another woman
I Can’t watch you cuddle another woman
Am jealous 🥺💔
If you mine you mine ✊
Forever is too overrated
Baby give me your undivided attention today
Let me be your confidant
Your best friend
Your home 🤲🏾♥️
Keep me,I keep you 🤞
And as we hope for better days,let’s fight the bad days together
And together we shall endure

Courtesy of @Wambui 💎

I smile at myself,
How he cuddles you,
How he hugs you,
How he is close to you,
May be i am on hallucinogens,
May be i need a new pair of Contact lens,
The conjectures may be,
The conundrum of watching it,
How you tell us apart,
How stifling it gets,
Doesn’t it ever cross your mind?
I lost feel,
I lost touch,
I am brooming,
To a stone,
It’s not what i signed for,
To be traumatized,
To be depressed,
To lose myself in it,

Merciless,
Kind,
Irrevocable,
It’s inevitable,
So am i,
The rules of the jungle,
You have to outrun,
Eat or be the meal,
Born as prey,
Others as predators,
Others will poach,
Some will scavenge,
The circle of life,
It’s a cycle,
To live,
You run,
To eat,
You run,
It’s all basic,
Trust your instincts,
The safest,
Is the most dangerous,
That’s what i got,
For being great,
For what we shared,

You thought you had a chance?
That you could lie your way back,
May be lay your way back,
I grew horns,
I burnt the wings,
I learnt how to walk,
To fly,
To crawl,
On my own,
Solo rides,
The settling sun,
The morning dew,
The little things,
They do more than you ever did,

I am not winter,
I don make appearances,
Once every year,
I can’t be all over,
Neither everywhere,
How could villains be omnipresent?
Ironic,
Sarcastic,
I am still stuck,
On the verge of return
On the lines of no return,
Swinging,
Swaying,
Swerving,
It’s pretty cool,
Your images,
Make it scornful,
Mornful,
I still smile as bright,
For you died,
Years ago,
Ages ago,

With the wolves howling,
The night is here,
Hunting in the winter,
The animals withered,
Emaciated, thin,
Frozen waters,
In need of blood,
We’ve howled out of hunger,
We’ve howled out of anger,
We are a team,
I an Alpha,
I can hunt solo,
For the pack,
I stick around,
I’ll stand with them,
At least they more human than you,
Warmer than you,
Even in the afterlife,
I stand in the dark,
To love,
To hold,
Till forever,
I am,
The Alpha
Wolverine.

All i wanted was,
A hand to hold,
A shoulder to lean on,
All the way to the end,
To smile,
To laugh,
To commit,
I was done for,
This is treason,
Death by the chair,
May be by hanging,
May be life imprisonment,
It’s been easy,
Treading on fire,
On ice,
It’s as easy as it gets,
When i see the sun smile,
The moon laughs,

Yes i am human,
May be devoid of emotions,
Full of smarts,
How could you think?
That i was that blind!
As the sun is to dew,
And bees are to nectar,
So is i and you,
As east and west,
We only meet the sun,
The meet was just a hilarious joke,
By Mother Nature,
It’s funny how you say i hurt you,
How you tell them,
You never moved on,
That you feel bad for what you did,
You knew it all along,
I might be weird,
Not dumb neither stupid,

May be i was too naive,
I saw the world,
In a different way,
A different perspective,
Wow, i wasn’t shocked,
Everything was blurry,
I couldn’t see between the lines,
You asking me why?
Why I had to go?
Why i left?
Why i never said goodbye?
Why i never bid you farewell?
May be so that,
You’d pull me right back in,
With your petty,
Little schemes,
I had seen through all of them,
I had enough of them,

It’s shady out there,
I never thought,
The shade was right next to me,
You said you wasn’t ready,
That we could wait,
We got time,
We ain’t going nowhere,
And yet you gave him,
Fifty shades,
Pounded him with 50 shades darker,
It was all 7D,
Real time movie,
Now you smell like his cologne,
I feel ousted,
Cast out,
Yes the things i signed up for,
You was just but pulling me,
By the ears,
Like a bunny,
That you think i am,

You apped me up,
Told me,
Hey boo, am cramping,
I was stressed up,
I hadn’t made bucks for days,
I was on the edge of collapsing,
I had to get you sugaries,
Get you yo favourite movie,
You said you watched it all day,
Since when did you go solo,
When did it become the you style,
You used to be a capitalist,
Now you turned a communist,

I could be shattered,
Shocked, surprised,
But why should i be?
You change colors all year,
You change your mind all decade,
You said yes today,
Tomorrow you gave him your number,
You said no, i can’t,
Yet here you are,
Snuggled in his arms,
You wanted to spend,
Yes, spend all the money,
Where’s the time?
I am way too busy,
You been hanging in the hood,
Giving him all the wrong signals,
He thinks you wanna consummate,
He thinks you like him,
You even went over for lunch,
And a midday movie,

Am still wondering what happened,
To the vibes of us,
To our dreams,
To our songs,
To the moves,
That were all ours,
Now you out there,
Sharing it with tom and harry,
I can’t even say hi to trust,
Or love,
How’s that us being true,
You asked for my love,
I gave it to you,
On a golden platter,
Fed it to you with a silver spoon,
Now you here,
Putting it up for grabs,
Like on the black Friday,
70% discount??
I could be shattered,

They ask why you smile,
They search for reasons why you laugh,
They hug you with knives,
Kiss you with poison,
Not because they are jealous,
Not because they want to replace you,
They want you to stick around,
To juggle around and about them,
To walk through hell with them,
The spoils belong to them,
The good things,
Only they deserve,
They call us fickle,
They guilt trip us,
They string us along,

In the next life,
I hope not to see you,
I also don see this coming to life,
It’s as good as it sounds,
I find it weird,
Funny how i smile,
At who i am today,
I find it cool,
Ironic, right?
To new beginnings,
To stories that we tell,
To the moments we create,
To the life,
We wanted to live,
I hope he makes you smile,
Just like he used to,
I hope he still treats you,
Just how he used to,
I hope he makes you happy,
As he used to,
In the after next,
I am at least,
Half alive and alive,
To have,
To hold,
To love,
We got till forever,
She loves me not,
She loves me,
She loves me not,
Cornered.

Regret?
Sorry, it has no medicine,
Its eternal,
It’s forever,
It makes us human,
I hate how you lie to me,
I hate how you string me along,
I hate how you leave me on read mode,
I hate how you all touchy and lovee dovee with him,
I hate it when you play me dumb,
I hate how you take me for granted,
I hate that you didn’t text me back,
I hate how much i miss you,
I hate how much i used to love you,
I hate how you left me behind,
I hate that i moved on,
I do hate the fact that i ever met you,

See how you smile at him,
Do you ever feel how he hugs you,
How he touches you,
Do you ever complain?
All you say,
He’s hilarious,
He’s my best friend,
That’s so cony,
Makes me wanna smoke,
Everyone sees it in his eyes,
Can’t you?
May be i am your distraction,
From the reality you running away from,
From yourself and him,
It’s not as bad as it sounds,
From the shadows i used to smile,
From the dark i protected you,
In the light,
You never saw the little i did for you,
You couldn’t even see what i did for you,
Now that we done,
And i am gone,
You wanna rewind the clock?

Smiling at the moon,
Freeing his demons to ravish the night,
Howling at it to let it all out,
The pain stakes him more,
Someday he’ll die with it,
And they’ll never know,
He was brave,
He thought he was strong enough,
His eyes sting,
He can’t bear to let them flow,
He holds the tears back,
Looks at the moon,
Cages his demons

,Sitting at the edge,
Waiting for the sun to rise,
To look at it a little longer,
And off he’ll be,
Yet to another journey,
To seek,
He was born to be a one man army,
Fated to be alone,
Destined to be lonely,
That was his portion in life,
It was all he could do,
He takes to the air,
Stiffles back the ache,
The pain, the anger,
If someday he ever blows,
They’ll tumble,
Tremble,
Yet he will be in the shadows,
When he let go,
He lost it,
It was systematic,
Slow and cruel,
For love,
He gave up his,
So that she could smile,
That she could consummate,
She will never know how it hurt,
Neither of how badly he was broken,
He medded the little pieces,
Moved to the next assignment,
In here he’s Lucifer,
Out there he is the messiah,
Ironic??
It is as it should be,
Him for her,
Her for him,
How could he stand a chance?
She loves me not,
She loves me,
She loves me not.