Propitious

The thoughts of you send chills down my spine,
How could you be so heartless?
After years of sharing a soul,
After days of pampering ourselves with love,
Was i too shallow or sallow?
How can’t i compare to them?
Is it the treasures of life?
Or the value of the love?
Had i known earlier i wouldn’t be this low,
I wouldn’t be this hurt and broken,
How could have I known?
When i was all blazon and ignorant,
When all i saw was you and only you,
Little did i know how they disdained me,
How they laughed at me behind my back,
The way they sneered ignorantly at me,
I never gave it a deep thought,
I was all in, neck deep in it,
I couldn’t help but drown it,